I knew that I had been blessed with many things, but there was a significant distance inside between the feelings of gratitude for the good and the feelings of despair for the bad. It felt like I was simultaneously on a high mountain and a low, dark valley, and that there wasn’t anything in between.
Seeing that I was being blessed with my work efforts, it made me wonder why I also wasn’t being blessed with my efforts at home. Overall, as I tried to assess the situation, I wondered what was expected of me. Should my gratitude for success at work outweigh the despair I felt over the situation at home?
I have seen others in these same situations. Cancer may strike a family, but the neighborhood may come together in support of the family. The family may feel a deep sense of loss and fear and love at the same time. There are plenty of other situations as well, but hardships often have good parallels that also occur.